My Life Experience

 1:04 AM, November 18  I should be sleeping now. I have a big film shooting tomorrow but I wanted to take this time to reflect on some things that I have done before, that I do not want to repeat again. I just thought it would make sense for me to write a short blog about it because apparently this is my safe space.  I like this. One day, when I will get old and famous, someone will read these, maybe my kids and have a perception of me when I was young. I think it's pretty cool to know your younger dad. How was he? What were his ambitions? What broke him? What made him happy?  Ha- before diving into that tangent let me just quickly reflect on my previous directing fails that I do not want to repeat tomorrow. I will be documenting this film projects journey as well, as best as I possibly can. "THE FLOWER AT THE END OF THE WORLD"  The first thing that comes to mind is the sacrifices I make when shooting. I am a little too gentle at times, especially with my actors...

So I've decided to not release these blogs out to the world. Firstly, cause I got banned off instagram and facebook because of the title of my last blog "You need to bleed a little" haha, cowards.  Secondly, I think writing these blogs can stay personal and people who know me, already know I write these blogs so if they want to read it, they will look for it.  So now, that's out of the way. Let's begin.  WHEN IT GETS A LITTLE DIFFICULT  I'd say it gets more and more difficult as time passes by and I would love to disagree with it but I can't anymore. They say wounds heal over time. I'd say, no, it's not healing per say, its still there just laying, chilling in your skin. It's fine if you don't touch it but if accidentally something does, you bleed. You bleed the same way you bled when it first came to be. The scars might be old but the feeling it bursts upon your skin will never be.  I was in the shower couple days ago. I had a good day. I...