My Life Experience

  RIGHT PERSON /WRONG TIME A brief blog about LOVE  ( between lovers not parents and stuff) " Do you love me? "                                        " Of course, I do. "                                                                              " Then, why ?"                                                       " I just want to... live a little more, I guess ."  LIVE. LOVE . LIFE.  We are strange creatures. Social creatures with the most unsociable lives. ...

 Leaving Dreams To Chase Money a small blog about why I chose to do it  You wake up someday. The room is just like it used to be. Just like it has always been. The sun is shinning through the big windows you installed a week ago. You think to yourself, " Oh shit, another day to go through." You try to wake up. Your back hurts a little more than it did yesterday. You need to take a deep breath before you rearrange your skeletal system like you have been doing for the past 20 years but today it isn't rearranging instead fracturing (into little pieces that stick out of your skin like tiny hairs do).  "Well, it is what it is", you say to yourself and move along the wall, grabbing the dry paint with your wrinkled hands. A device rings on the left pocket of your night gown that has been dry washed three times in the last two weeks. You try to rotate your hand in an angle as to not hurt yourself but end up failing. Crack !!. Another bone. "Well, it is what it is....

 A momentary relapse , it's been a year since I last wrote a blog. And here I am again today, after a year, I don't know if I will write daily now or if I will never write again, all I know is I want to spill my thoughts right now and share them with people who might care.  The title of this blog will be -                                                  A YEAR AND SOME MORE IN UNCERTAINTY   A lot has happened after I last wrote about my thoughts on mortality. I re-read it today and just looked back at myself. Looked back at my thoughts and my concept of happiness. I have written about "passion" about chasing your dreams and about "satisfaction". I have written it with so much confidence-, as if I knew the answers, I knew life, and I knew what I was doing. Well after a year, after days of ...

 THOUGHTS ON MORTALITY  I have always wondered about the end of life, about the end of time, yes, I am a little weird dude sometimes but how can a living, breathing person not think of his own mortality when honestly he is always surrounded by the fear of dying?  I recently lost someone close to me. Very close. I lost my grandmother.  The memories with her now feels like the faded negatives of the photos you used to click when you were young.  Regrets of not spending a little more time always hunts me. Maybe I should have said " I love you" a lot more to her. Maybe I should have held her hands a little longer. Maybe I should have heard her words from her wrinkled lips a lot more than I did. Maybe. Maybe. But it's always going to be a maybe.  So now I look at mortality in a different light. I used to fear it a lot, even as a child. What if I died without proposing to this one girl I always used to like in school, I used to think. What if my grandmother just ...

MY FIRST SHORT FILM  Well in my case, I see film as a form of an outlet for my emotions and feelings. I have always been an introvert for all my life although I try to fit myself in a society filled with extroverts. So my emotions and feelings were mostly trapped inside me as I talked and discussed about topics that never really interested me in the first place until I found films. I have been making short films since the age of 16. Initially I started where every starting filmmaker usually does making a short which requires more knowledge about film as an art form and none the less I failed miserably.                                                                                       MY FIRST ATTEMPT Hiraeth was my first at...